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[Jul. 10th, 2004|10:59 pm] |
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I have a new name. It is yeyahbenji. All ya'll check it out now. |
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[Mar. 18th, 2004|10:37 pm] |
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| | Calmer of the Storm | ] |
Scary at how true this seems to me.
Hmm........... |
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| Decision Time |
[Feb. 11th, 2004|09:27 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | It's my only hope | ] |
Well, I have quite a few things going on. So, this being a journal, I'll write and say what they are.
First, my cell phone: it's missing. I don't know where it is. So, until then, no one can call me. Ah! I need for you guys to call me, and I need to call you. Pray that I find it; I know I am.
But now for what I really mean to say. As of today, I'm giving up a large portion of my life. Basically, I'll be starting Lent early. I'll give up all computer and video game entertainment until Easter Sunday. I am doing this for a few reasons:
1. When I get my progress report, my dad's gonna punish me this way anyway.
2. I need to reprioritize my life. I've let myself get too astray with all of this. I need to take a break. So I am now, with no exceptions.
3. I have to do more things. Video games and the computer are getting a little boring. I need more stuff to do.
This means that I won't be using instant messenger, writing comics, playing video games, etc. I will though, continue to do e-mail and this livejournal, but they'll still be taking a backseat to everything else. So, now I'll let you all comment and stuff. I won't be talking on instant messenger, but I will leave it away for you to comment there if you feel. I just won't talk back. I'll call you if I want to, or you can do the same.
I just need my phone first.
So now, until Easter, I pretty much bid a lot of you adieu. On the internet anyway. I want to get more personal with people. So I will. Cool, huh?
Bye, for a while.
Edit: Actually, I've changed my mind a little. I will use AIM only if I focus solely on having a good conversation. If it dies, then I'm off. And, I have to use it only when I can find no other alternative, not to substitute what I'm trying to do. So yeah. |
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| A momentous occasion |
[Feb. 9th, 2004|11:38 pm] |
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I'm so proud.......
As of today, Feb. 9, I have been officially saving kittens for two months. I haven't killed one yet!
All smiles for that one! |
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| "Puddle of confusion" |
[Feb. 7th, 2004|11:50 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
Well, today has been a pretty cool day, the highlight of which being the "eye toy." For those who don't know about it, you should, so I'll explain. It's basically a camera that puts you on the tv and detects your motions and allows you to hit objects on the screen. Really cool stuff. But, on to other matters.
I'm somewhat lost in a puddle of confusion. Everytime I think I've got it figured out, something goes amiss. I know that just means that I'll never be able to get a grasp on things, so I have to take risks and chances. That's the one thing that's been holding me back: the chance. Someone needs to just punch me or something. I mean, if I never go for it, how will I ever know it would have been or not? At least I'll have an answer. It's just that my mind keeps drifting around. I shouldn't have to worry so much.
But I do.
I should pray some more about it. Is this what I need right now? I know I want it, but for the right reasons? the right cause? That's what I need to know most. Right now I think that I would do it for right reasons, but it needs to be with someone who I am willing to talk to, know about, hang with (by the way, the subject is ladies). I believe I am willing. The question remains then: who?
Ah, the joy of the confusion of life. I do hope I can do something soon. I need less of the hanging out with men, and more of the female side. I mean, the guys are great, but they just don't satisfy like a nice lady (when I say lady, I mean it properly).
They say good things come to those who wait. Well, I've waited, and nothing really comes. That saying applies to perserverance more than waiting out. I need more initiative.
Now I'm just rambling. So I'll stop and continue later. |
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| Great are you--Downhere |
[Feb. 7th, 2004|11:22 pm] |
How I love Your works
My God, My King
How I love Your works
My God, My King
Your Name rings on the plains
Like a not so distant train
And Love and history are near
In the flowers that you make
The flowers that you make
CHORUS
Because I'll never hold the picture
Of the whole horizon in my view
Because I'll never rip the night in two
It makes me wonder
Who am I, Who am I, Who am I
And great are you
How I love Your Word
My God, My King
How I love Your Word
My God, My King
Your love cuts through these pages to my heart
As you grieve our sins, right from the start
And sacrifice and paradise are in
The plans that you made, The plans that you made
Chorus (2x) |
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[Feb. 1st, 2004|11:15 pm] |
To make this clarifyingly easy, the background is my brother, jared. The smaller avatar is me.
And the picture is smooth because I have a nice camera. |
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| Oceanfloor--Audio Adrenaline |
[Feb. 1st, 2004|01:28 pm] |
the mistakes I've made
that caused pain
I could have done without
all my selfish thoughts
all my pride
the things I hid
you have forgot about
(chorus)
they're all behind you
they'll never find you
they're on the ocean floor
your sins are forgotten
they're on the bottom
of the ocean floor
my misdeeds
all my greed
all the things that haunt me now
they're not a pretty sight to see
but they're wiped away
by a mighty, mighty wave
a mighty, mighty wave
(chorus)
your sins are erased
and they are no more
they're out on the ocean floor
take them away
to return no more
take them away
to the ocean floor
to the ocean floor
to the ocean floor
(chorus x2)
your sins are erased
and they are no more
they're out on the ocean floor
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Alright, as you can see, songs invade my journal. This is a way of me telling you which songs I like a lot. I mean, they're cool, and as most people know, if Ben likes the song, then it's usually pretty good.
Just ask anybody who listened to the Bunjiman cds. |
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[Feb. 1st, 2004|12:22 am] |
Thanks to Sloane for reminding me.
I'm still saving kittens! Too bad I'm too lazy to do the calculation of days at the moment. But I'm still going good! |
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| Meant to live |
[Feb. 1st, 2004|12:06 am] |
Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments,
And failed attempts to fly, fly
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live |
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[Jan. 11th, 2004|01:57 am] |
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| |  lethargic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My heart is spoken for | ] |
It's been found out that I have the best conversations in the early morning. Sounds interesting. And true. You should try and talk to me then. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2004|11:06 pm] |
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You know, you would think that originality and creativity would help in an English class.
It only seems to hinder me. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2004|09:40 pm] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
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| | Voice of truth | ] |
Well, I decided to give my journal a face lift, and I'm sure anybody who looks at this will only think that I either have too much time on my hands or that I have the best journal ever. Hopefully, you'll just think I'm crazy.
Anyway, onto what a journal's supposed to be about. A couple days ago, Dave, my youth pastor, got fired. Most everyone is in a stage of what the crapness and there is lots of anger ensuing. Tomorrow, we're supposed to have youth group. I don't know what it will be like. Will people not show up, as some sort of strike? Will people worship? Will there even be? I don't know. I just do know that I have to keep things calm around here. If I don't, who will? Dave being fired is not the greatest thing that can happen, but we have to move on and deal with it. But what do I see? People wanting to sign petitions, people planning walkouts, people with doubts. I can just see the headline now: WWIII starts in the peaceful town of Peachtree City, GA, after enraged youths attack due to the firing of their youth minister.
Alright, so I'm overexxagerating. It still concerns me. This youth group has come too far for it to crumble like this. I mean, 40 to 400? I can't leave this group, it's meant too much to me. Dave was a crucial part of it, yes, but it's really the group that has been my life. Now, I know I have to step up and be what God is calling me to be here. It's just gonna be tough.
There's gonna have to be lots of prayers goin on in PTC.
By the way, a month and a day of saving kittens. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2004|03:50 pm] |
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Oops, I forgot. Today is day 24! STK!! |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2004|03:47 pm] |
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| | Come, thou fount of every blessing | ] |
I love my keyboard. I'm so going to get better at it. I even know a couple songs!
Happy new year to everyone out there. Enjoy it while it lasts. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2003|08:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Hmm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Punch Out | ] |
Well, I hope everybody had a Merry Christmas. I was so excited to find out that I got a bumper pool table which is also a card table. I was like.......whoa. I also got a piano keyboard and I'm definitely going to try and learn how to play it a lot better than I do now (which, by the way, is pretty much none at all).
I can so get into this not having school thing. Too bad it won't last.
I wonder sometimes.......
Am I really as sexy as I claim to be? I mean, sexy may not be the best word, but I still wonder how I rank. No one's ever gonna tell me directly to my face if I am as great as I say. Just a thought that comes to mind....
Bunjiman--going strong for 17 days. |
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[Dec. 19th, 2003|10:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Who am I?" Downhere | ] |
Recently, I have come to an impasse in my plans for what I'm going to do. The band that leads Middle School youth group, One Way, will have members leaving it this year because they are seniors. I have seriously considered being one of the band members for One Way next year. Well, anyway there just happen to be several problems with that:
1. Handbells are on Wednesday nights, and MS youth group is on Wednesday nights. I've been doing handbells since 6th grade, and I can't just leave them.
2. I like drama and acting, and if I choose to be in the band, I have to give that up in order to practice with the band.
3. I don't know how to play an instrument. Though I don't think it's required, I think I would have to learn.
Well when it comes to those problems, the only one I think I have a true issue with is 1. I will give up acting in a moment in order to lead worship, and I will pretty much be willing to learn an instrument if I have to. The handbells causes the most problems. I simply cannot leave. They need me there. I can't leave them like that. I would like to figure out a way to do both. Perhaps I always come into bells late? Or they change the bells time? I don't know exactly what to do, but I'll try and figure something out.
On to cooler stuff, I'm now on winter break! It's awesome. I'll tell my grades as soon as I get them. I'm worried, but I feel mostly ok about it. Today, when I got out of school early, I went over to the Pip's house and played Mario Kart: Double Dash and beat the entire thing. It took a good 6 or 7 hours, but we did it all. Crazy.
Well, signing off.
-Bunjiman--Saving kittens since December 9, 2003! |
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[Dec. 9th, 2003|06:14 pm] |
Tell me, who all had to write a research paper in one night?
Yeah, I know, I totally brought it all upon myself, but still, that was just plain malebolgia! But I finished it all. Research, quotes, photocopies, everything. In one night. Dumbness!!!!
And no, that's not my picture up there. It's my cousin's (sorry all you hopeful ladies out there). |
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