Here I go again

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 02:59:47 GMT

I have a new name. It is yeyahbenji. All ya'll check it out now.

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 00:19:03 GMT

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Really, please do.

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 03:38:03 GMT

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Sense of Humour
In a survival situation, you:	Cleverly trick your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Resourcefulness
Your gift is:	Ability to acquire wealth
In groups, you:	Work for a common goal
Your best quality is:	Your empathic nature
Your weakness is:	Your antisocial nature

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

Scary at how true this seems to me.

Hmm...........

Decision Time

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 02:27:31 GMT

Well, I have quite a few things going on. So, this being a journal, I'll write and say what they are.

First, my cell phone: it's missing. I don't know where it is. So, until then, no one can call me. Ah! I need for you guys to call me, and I need to call you. Pray that I find it; I know I am.

But now for what I really mean to say. As of today, I'm giving up a large portion of my life. Basically, I'll be starting Lent early. I'll give up all computer and video game entertainment until Easter Sunday. I am doing this for a few reasons:

1. When I get my progress report, my dad's gonna punish me this way anyway.
2. I need to reprioritize my life. I've let myself get too astray with all of this. I need to take a break. So I am now, with no exceptions.
3. I have to do more things. Video games and the computer are getting a little boring. I need more stuff to do.

This means that I won't be using instant messenger, writing comics, playing video games, etc. I will though, continue to do e-mail and this livejournal, but they'll still be taking a backseat to everything else. So, now I'll let you all comment and stuff. I won't be talking on instant messenger, but I will leave it away for you to comment there if you feel. I just won't talk back. I'll call you if I want to, or you can do the same.

I just need my phone first.

So now, until Easter, I pretty much bid a lot of you adieu. On the internet anyway. I want to get more personal with people. So I will. Cool, huh?

Bye, for a while.

Edit: Actually, I've changed my mind a little. I will use AIM only if I focus solely on having a good conversation. If it dies, then I'm off. And, I have to use it only when I can find no other alternative, not to substitute what I'm trying to do. So yeah.

A momentous occasion

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 04:40:05 GMT

I'm so proud.......

As of today, Feb. 9, I have been officially saving kittens for two months. I haven't killed one yet!

All smiles for that one!

"Puddle of confusion"

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 04:51:36 GMT

Well, today has been a pretty cool day, the highlight of which being the "eye toy." For those who don't know about it, you should, so I'll explain. It's basically a camera that puts you on the tv and detects your motions and allows you to hit objects on the screen. Really cool stuff. But, on to other matters.

I'm somewhat lost in a puddle of confusion. Everytime I think I've got it figured out, something goes amiss. I know that just means that I'll never be able to get a grasp on things, so I have to take risks and chances. That's the one thing that's been holding me back: the chance. Someone needs to just punch me or something. I mean, if I never go for it, how will I ever know it would have been or not? At least I'll have an answer. It's just that my mind keeps drifting around. I shouldn't have to worry so much.

But I do.

I should pray some more about it. Is this what I need right now? I know I want it, but for the right reasons? the right cause? That's what I need to know most. Right now I think that I would do it for right reasons, but it needs to be with someone who I am willing to talk to, know about, hang with (by the way, the subject is ladies). I believe I am willing. The question remains then: who?

Ah, the joy of the confusion of life. I do hope I can do something soon. I need less of the hanging out with men, and more of the female side. I mean, the guys are great, but they just don't satisfy like a nice lady (when I say lady, I mean it properly).

They say good things come to those who wait. Well, I've waited, and nothing really comes. That saying applies to perserverance more than waiting out. I need more initiative.

Now I'm just rambling. So I'll stop and continue later.

Great are you--Downhere

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 04:23:57 GMT

How I love Your works
My God, My King
How I love Your works
My God, My King

Your Name rings on the plains
Like a not so distant train
And Love and history are near
In the flowers that you make
The flowers that you make

CHORUS

Because I'll never hold the picture
Of the whole horizon in my view
Because I'll never rip the night in two
It makes me wonder
Who am I, Who am I, Who am I
And great are you

How I love Your Word
My God, My King
How I love Your Word
My God, My King

Your love cuts through these pages to my heart
As you grieve our sins, right from the start
And sacrifice and paradise are in
The plans that you made, The plans that you made
Chorus (2x)

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 04:16:16 GMT

To make this clarifyingly easy, the background is my brother, jared. The smaller avatar is me.

And the picture is smooth because I have a nice camera.

Oceanfloor--Audio Adrenaline

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 18:29:52 GMT

the mistakes I've made
that caused pain
I could have done without

all my selfish thoughts
all my pride
the things I hid
you have forgot about

(chorus)
they're all behind you
they'll never find you
they're on the ocean floor
your sins are forgotten
they're on the bottom
of the ocean floor

my misdeeds
all my greed
all the things that haunt me now
they're not a pretty sight to see
but they're wiped away
by a mighty, mighty wave
a mighty, mighty wave

(chorus)

your sins are erased
and they are no more
they're out on the ocean floor

take them away
to return no more
take them away
to the ocean floor
to the ocean floor
to the ocean floor

(chorus x2)

your sins are erased
and they are no more
they're out on the ocean floor

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Alright, as you can see, songs invade my journal. This is a way of me telling you which songs I like a lot. I mean, they're cool, and as most people know, if Ben likes the song, then it's usually pretty good.

Just ask anybody who listened to the Bunjiman cds.

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 05:23:19 GMT

Thanks to Sloane for reminding me.

I'm still saving kittens! Too bad I'm too lazy to do the calculation of days at the moment. But I'm still going good!

Meant to live

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 05:07:00 GMT

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments,
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 04:37:54 GMT

Am I really that sexy?

Now you can tell me! I felt like you should, anyhow.

So, things have been ok since I last said anything. I started a comic! Check it out at http://forums.bobandgeorge.com/thread.php?threadid=7028&np=23

Also, I feel I'm getting closer and closer......

More to come! And tell me what you think of the dancing Strong Bads.

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 06:58:53 GMT

It's been found out that I have the best conversations in the early morning. Sounds interesting. And true. You should try and talk to me then.

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 04:07:12 GMT

You know, you would think that originality and creativity would help in an English class.

It only seems to hinder me.

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 02:41:47 GMT

Well, I decided to give my journal a face lift, and I'm sure anybody who looks at this will only think that I either have too much time on my hands or that I have the best journal ever. Hopefully, you'll just think I'm crazy.

Anyway, onto what a journal's supposed to be about. A couple days ago, Dave, my youth pastor, got fired. Most everyone is in a stage of what the crapness and there is lots of anger ensuing. Tomorrow, we're supposed to have youth group. I don't know what it will be like. Will people not show up, as some sort of strike? Will people worship? Will there even be? I don't know. I just do know that I have to keep things calm around here. If I don't, who will? Dave being fired is not the greatest thing that can happen, but we have to move on and deal with it. But what do I see? People wanting to sign petitions, people planning walkouts, people with doubts. I can just see the headline now: WWIII starts in the peaceful town of Peachtree City, GA, after enraged youths attack due to the firing of their youth minister.

Alright, so I'm overexxagerating. It still concerns me. This youth group has come too far for it to crumble like this. I mean, 40 to 400? I can't leave this group, it's meant too much to me. Dave was a crucial part of it, yes, but it's really the group that has been my life. Now, I know I have to step up and be what God is calling me to be here. It's just gonna be tough.

There's gonna have to be lots of prayers goin on in PTC.

By the way, a month and a day of saving kittens.

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 20:52:15 GMT

Oops, I forgot. Today is day 24! STK!!

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 20:49:49 GMT

I love my keyboard. I'm so going to get better at it. I even know a couple songs!

Happy new year to everyone out there. Enjoy it while it lasts.

Sun, 28 Dec 2003 01:58:14 GMT

Well, I hope everybody had a Merry Christmas. I was so excited to find out that I got a bumper pool table which is also a card table. I was like.......whoa. I also got a piano keyboard and I'm definitely going to try and learn how to play it a lot better than I do now (which, by the way, is pretty much none at all).

I can so get into this not having school thing. Too bad it won't last.

I wonder sometimes.......

Am I really as sexy as I claim to be? I mean, sexy may not be the best word, but I still wonder how I rank. No one's ever gonna tell me directly to my face if I am as great as I say. Just a thought that comes to mind....

Bunjiman--going strong for 17 days.

Sat, 20 Dec 2003 03:06:36 GMT

Recently, I have come to an impasse in my plans for what I'm going to do. The band that leads Middle School youth group, One Way, will have members leaving it this year because they are seniors. I have seriously considered being one of the band members for One Way next year. Well, anyway there just happen to be several problems with that:

1. Handbells are on Wednesday nights, and MS youth group is on Wednesday nights. I've been doing handbells since 6th grade, and I can't just leave them.
2. I like drama and acting, and if I choose to be in the band, I have to give that up in order to practice with the band.
3. I don't know how to play an instrument. Though I don't think it's required, I think I would have to learn.

Well when it comes to those problems, the only one I think I have a true issue with is 1. I will give up acting in a moment in order to lead worship, and I will pretty much be willing to learn an instrument if I have to. The handbells causes the most problems. I simply cannot leave. They need me there. I can't leave them like that. I would like to figure out a way to do both. Perhaps I always come into bells late? Or they change the bells time? I don't know exactly what to do, but I'll try and figure something out.

On to cooler stuff, I'm now on winter break! It's awesome. I'll tell my grades as soon as I get them. I'm worried, but I feel mostly ok about it. Today, when I got out of school early, I went over to the Pip's house and played Mario Kart: Double Dash and beat the entire thing. It took a good 6 or 7 hours, but we did it all. Crazy.

Well, signing off.

-Bunjiman--Saving kittens since December 9, 2003!

Tue, 09 Dec 2003 23:16:25 GMT

Tell me, who all had to write a research paper in one night?

Yeah, I know, I totally brought it all upon myself, but still, that was just plain malebolgia! But I finished it all. Research, quotes, photocopies, everything. In one night. Dumbness!!!!

And no, that's not my picture up there. It's my cousin's (sorry all you hopeful ladies out there).

Wed, 12 Nov 2003 21:56:52 GMT

MS SLA was superbly awesome. I was totally surprised by my group's maturity level. The 8th graders jumped straight into deep conversation, and I learned a lot from them. It's totally got me psyched for next weekend. I'll be climbing the mountain then, trying to find that paddle. I'll be sure to tell you all if I find it.

Research papers suck.

I pray God takes my issues into His hands.

Sorry to keep you waiting

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 22:17:12 GMT

It's been way too long since I've updated this. Sorry for all of you desperately waiting for me to say something.

Well, where to begin. Ok, on Saturday our school went to one-act drama competition and we actually won. I don't believe it! We actually won! I mean, we had tough competition, too. But the problem came up about going to state competition: it's during our Spiritual Life Advance weekend. Immediately I got my part recast; there's no way I'm going to miss SLA, the greatest trip of the year.

This weekend I'll be gone at the middle school SLA. It's going to be awesome working as a "chaperone" of sorts, rather than being the student. It'll still be very awesome for me, but I can't wait to see how all the middle schoolers are going to react.

For the past couple weeks, I have had very nice nights. They've always been magical and I wish time would have stopped in them. Since it can't, though, I'll just have to make do with it. Thank you for always being so cool about all that's going on. I really appreciate how you're dealing with it. And by the way, your codename is Elaine.

I'll hopefully write again before I go for the weekend.

Oh Goodness....

Sat, 25 Oct 2003 05:19:25 GMT

Well, it's pretty late, and I'm just adding on here to fill up the much needed space. McIntosh lost the game, but it's all still ok. I came home and played Viewtiful Joe nonstop until about twenty minutes ago. That game is so awesome. But anyway, I performed my play last night. It was crazy. I had to be one guy in the first play, another guy in the second, and another in the third. All this, and my name still doesn't get on the t-shirt.

Excuse me.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright, now that that's out, I can be sort of ok. PapaG is supposed to be here tomorrow (er, today), so I'm looking forward to that.

Can't wait to get into the new youth center! It's gonna be awesome.

Rejected

Thu, 23 Oct 2003 04:20:52 GMT

Yep, just got. But it's all cool.

Don't you fret....
I'm still the coolest man yet.

The first post

Thu, 23 Oct 2003 03:41:17 GMT

Hey, hey, hey, everyone. I finally get to start one of these things, and a loud shout out to crouton for getting me the code I needed. Thanks bunches (and bunches more). Now all of you out there get to finally know what I am thinking lots of the time. That is, if I decide to share it with you all. For those of you who don't know me, you'll come to realize that I'm not quite your average guy. Sometimes it my seem I am boasting about myself, while, in actuality, I'm just joking around. That's how I do things.

Well, I definitely want to get some more friends in here and stuff. I mean, I know a couple people around here and all that, but at the moment I'm too lazy to put them on my friends list. Of course, I'm requesting for [i]more[/i] when I have only had one post in here. Crazy me.

So what should I talk about first? School? The ladies? Issues? I don't know. I don't feel about going into anything into detail right now. I'd rather just get some general stuff out there.

About me? I'm a white guy who hails from GA. I have brown hair and hazel eyes. I totally believe in Jesus Christ and what he does for me and the world. I live a good life. Sometimes it seems a little boring and unfulfilled, but I have great friends who keep me up when I'm down. I play video games quite a lot, but I thoroughly enjoy sitting out under the stars and just talking to someone about whatever. Especially if they're a girl, cause you know, girls are better to sit under the stars with. Any special lady, you ask? Well, there are a couple I've got in mind who I hope sorta feel the same way, but I'll leave that at that for now.

Well, I'm sorta done right now. Comments from the peanut gallery?